School: Day 1 of last year! Yeha!



Dear Diary….

Today I start my last fall semester. I have 2 classes that will last 7 weeks and then one other 7 week class that will take me into December. I will have two sessions in the spring seven weeks long and one regular semester class. I am especially looking forward to that one because it is with the same teacher I had for my Business Law class. It is so cool when you have teachers you enjoy learning from. Then I get to walk the stage with my Bachelor’s degree in hand! WOW! 

School has been fun! I have loved in 99% of the time but there have been one or two teachers that take all the fun out of going to class. I have only dropped one class in the last several years while completing my degrees. It was a required class for a different major. Fortunately, I discovered Business was my true passion and there was no need for that particular course with my current degree plan. 

What do I want to do when I grow up? Hmm… I haven’t quite decided that but I will be looking for a job starting this fall. I will go to the career seminars and put my resume out there. We shall see what happens but I think the right door will open. God has a tendency to show me just the right place to be at the right time. I’m looking forward to see what He has in store for me.



My Mantra today….

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sometimes you don’t really know who your friends are until you have to reach out and they are truly there! I have so many wonderful people in my life with friends and family! God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams!!
Thank you for helping me and mine through the last few weeks……
I couldn’t have done it without you! 🙂

Can you help me “move a body?”

Today’s Observation:

“Could you help me move a body? “

How many friends do you have that you could call and ask this question? Truly…

Let me clarify. Most people have other people in their lives they consider friends. However, we do have all different level of friends and we can usually make that distinction based on how well we know others. How long have we known them, how did we meet, who do we have in common, WHAT do we have in common, where do they live, how far away…etc.

Here is my list of how “friends” line up in my life.

  1. Acquaintances: These are people from work or school or church that you know well enough to say Hi to, even smile at and have a brief conversation. “Hey, how are you?” (and mean it) “How is the family? Your Aunt Sue who is in the hospital, your daughter away at college, your dog who was sick last week?” You actually do care enough about them to want to know the answers to these questions. However, they may or may not be someone you would want to spend a good deal of time with or have over for dinner. We usually have quite a few of these in our lives if we are involved in a work place, church or go to school.
  2. Old friends: These are the people who are still in your life from school, childhood, the street you grew up on or maybe you knew in your first neighborhood when you got married. Somehow, you have managed to stay in touch over the years. You call each other on birthdays (or text now days), send Christmas cards, wedding and graduation invitations. You make a little more effort to see them if you are in the “neighborhood” but you could go months or even years without being together. You may have even been very close at one time, but no longer have much in common. But you care about them and as long as someone is making the effort, you stay in touch.
  3. Good friends: This can be someone you have met recently or someone you have known for a long time. There is more effort involved. You talk once a week, check on each other often if there are specific life events going on and you may be the one who goes to sit with them in the hospital or take care of their kids, pets and or house when they are out of town or need you. You can talk to them about some things but you still may not tell them anything real specific or pour your heart and soul out to them. You do spend time together and see each other as often as schedules permit.
  4. Very good friends: This is who you call when someone has had a baby, passed away, been in an accident or gotten ill. You know they will do most anything for you and pray for you and whatever situation you are in. They are there for you to lean on and will love you through your heartache and your happy moments. They are happy for you in good times and sad for you in hard times. However, you may keep certain intimate details away from them. And this person may not even live close by. But even if you go a long time without seeing each other or talking, when you do get on the phone or see one another, nothing has changed and you can pick up right where you left off as if it were a week ago.
  5. Best friends:

*This is the one you call to “MOVE A BODY!” For instance-your mother is in town visiting, she is an alcoholic and somehow you have managed to keep this burden from your child. Mom has come over and is passed out on the couch and your child is about to come home from school. This is not something you are equipped to deal with at the moment. You call your friend and have them come over to help you move your mother to the guest room while she sleeps it off. *

These are the ones you let in. There are usually only one or maybe two of these people in our lives. This is who you call when your marriage is falling apart, your daughter has gotten pregnant, your son is getting married, your pregnant @ 43 and totally freaked out! You got fired at work…your spouse got fired at work. Someone at church said some hurtful things and you are mad at them. You know whatever you tell them stays within the walls. There is no judgment  and no one saying “I don’t have time to talk to you. You want WHAT again? Didn’t you just do that last week? Why didn’t you listen to me the last time this happened?” You also know in your heart they will do anything for you and pray for you and whatever situation you are in. They are there for you to lean on and will love you through your heartache and your happy moments. They are happy for you in good times and sad for you in hard times. There is complete TRUST!

These are the most rare people and the hardest ones to hold on to if we ever find them. Because we, as humans, are very judgmental. We have a very difficult time letting people get close enough to hurt us. If we have been hurt enough times, we will usually keep others at a distance. We may not have a best friend…or maybe not one anymore because the last one hurt us.

Trust is a hard thing to find and hold on to. Some of us have been hurt so many times and so badly, we do not let anyone in because we just expect everyone to hurt us. When we have had our hearts, mind, bodies and spirit broken so savagely it is understandable why these walls get built. It is a human reaction for self preservation. Unfortunately the walls not only keep the bad stuff out, it keeps the good stuff out too. It is tough to heal from brokenness. It is hard to get better and put the proverbial pieces of our hearts back together when they have been smashed to smithereens……but it is possible to do. We have to ask for help. We have to trust again. We have to reach out to God and ask for healing. All of these things are hard to do. But it can be done. I am a living, breathing example and I have a friend I can call to “move a body!” 🙂

 So my question today: Who do YOU call to “move a body?”

move a body

Do you believe in magic?

Today’s Observation:

“Oh My God! Look!!! …it’s my CAR! They have put it on the show room floor! And it has a gold package added to it just like I WANTED!” My husband cringed at my outburst because the art of negotiation just flew out the window on the wings of my excitement.

As the salesman rubs his hands together and looks up at the sky he thinks “Thank you Jesus! Today I am going to make a sale because that poor guy is NOT about to leave here without that car!”

I ran up to “my” car and touched the hood of it where the pretty gold emblem shined. I had seen this very car on the parking lot only two days before and thought to myself if it just had the gold package on it, this would be the exact car I want. Well, from my lips to God’s ears? That is exactly what was waiting for us when we went to the dealership that day.

Let me back up just a little bit. I have had two other new cars before this. The first one was a Taurus and I dearly loved that car. It was a great vehicle and saw us through many things. But when we moved to another state and I had a job, I decided to buy a Camry. A red one to boot… was beautiful and I liked that car a lot. I didn’t love it like the Taurus but it was fun to drive and I enjoyed it. It was also a great car. But my all time “dream” car was a Lexus ES300. I would salivate when I saw one driving down the road. I really didn’t think we would ever own one, much less drive it off the show room floor. But that was indeed what I got to do that day. It was one of the most incredible feelings I have ever had. I have another car now but my little green Lexus is still running around the state of TN and doing well from what I have been told.

Let me tell you why I no longer own my car………….

Once upon a time, I had a friend in college who owned a “magical” 1976 Camaro. It was his first car and he had bought it with his own money from working summers during high school.  It was bright yellow with black interior. It was a cool ride and fit his personality perfectly. On his way home from college for Christmas break he hit a patch of ice and slid down a guard rail on the interstate. It was still drivable so he was able to make it the rest of the way home. He had 2 of his friends in the car with him and fortunately no one was hurt. However, he left the car at home and drove his dad’s El Camino back to school.  After it was fixed, his dad traded it in on a new/used Monte Carlo per my friend’s request. He said after the wreck his car had lost its “magic”. I never truly understood what that meant until the day my beautiful Lexus lost the same “enchantment”.  I had loaned by car to my daughter’s boyfriend. Mistake #1 and AGAINST my better judgment but was talked into it. We let him drive it longer than he was supposed to Mistake #2. Then through a long series of events I saw the car again several months later and it was totally trashed! He had wrecked it once, never kept it clean, smoked in it and I don’t know to this day what was spilled in the trunk. Needless to say I took my car back and cried for days mourning over the loss of her “magic”. I never saw the car again. I left it in the hands of my very talented and skilled detail shop then gave the keys to my brother.

I have another wonderful car now and I have put many, many, MANY miles on her and she is good for many more. She is also red. Have a thing for red I suppose……But it will never be the same as my little green car….Nor will I ever have another love affair with a car like the one I had with it.  But my little green car was a gift you see……a gift from my hubby born of love and sacrifice from the last 4 years of living in a very COLD place so he could finish his residency and training to be a radiologist. I think it was the longest 4 years (and 18 days) of my life. And for those who know me…..know exactly what and where I am talking about. Was the four years worth my car? Uhm……..ask me again someday! LOL!

But God has a sense of humor and 2 of my very closest and dearest friends in the world live in that very same COLD place! LOL!! We would have never survived without them.

Thank you Lord for all of the “magic” we see on a daily basis with friends, family, relationships and yes….even cars. I am grateful for all I have and the things You have shown me in my life even though I am unworthy of all of it!

You are so good:-)

My Little Green car.....

My Little Green car…..