The Journey


I have had the question put to me several times in the last few years as I have walked through my journey of returning to school… “Why?” Followed by.. “I could never go back to school; it was too hard the first time.” or “Good for you!” etc.

It has been a journey and I have enjoyed 99.9% of it. It is challenging and it does make my brain hurt but growth is uncomfortable or so I have always been told. It certainly seems to be my experience. I have 2 semesters left and I will be walking across the stage once more for my Bachelor’s degree. I received my Associates last year and it was a thrill. I have been inducted into the Beta Gamma Sigma business honor society, Phi Theta Kappa and The Honors Society. Hard work has been worth all of it and my goal is to graduate Summa Cum Laude. So we shall see what happens between now and then. I am excited and honored to be a student at University of Texas @ Tyler and I can’t wait to see what life has waiting for me on the other side. But in the meantime.. I am enjoying my journey. And I am blessed beyond words to have those who have supported me through this walk and saw me through when I had doubt… and there have been times when I wanted to quit! Thank you!! I love you beyond measure!! ❤

I found this wonderful poem over at my wonderful bloggy friend Michelle Terry aka MammMickTerry She ROCKS!! 😘

The Journey

by Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice –
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do –
determined to save
the only life you could save.


“The Journey” by Mary Oliver, from Dream Work (The Atlantic Monthly Press)
Photo: ID: MTZ5252, Markita Szymanski

Done, Done, DONE!! Grrr..

frustrated bear

I am SO DONE with one sided relationships!!! I have a lot of “friends”. I have the ones who look over the edge of the hole I may be in and ask me how I got there in the first place (judgmental “friends”). I have the ones who hand me a ladder and tell me to get out of the hole (sympathetic “friends”)… then I have the ones who will get in the hole with me, freak out and blame me for being in the hole (drama “friends”)! Then we are BOTH there and miserable together.. ugh!

drama choice

Then there are the ones who will climb into the hole with me, hold my hand, tell me it’s going to be OK and support me while I find my way out of the hole. They aren’t really IN the hole, they are just empathetic to my circumstances and will love me no matter where I am. They don’t bail the first time they see that I am in trouble. They don’t run away or get disillusioned when they see me in a valley and avoid me until I am in a better place. These friends are very few and far between and my circle is extremely small. They are also the ones you can call on to help you move a body. (follow link) I know who I can count on during these times and I also forgive those who cannot be that person.  They are dealing with their own valleys and need those of us who can love them where they are.  The ironic part about me is that I am that person for so many because that is the type of friend I am and I do not mind helping others. But is it too much to ask to have others do that for me? Am I being selfish by wanting people to be there for me?

one seesaw

Over the years, I have given and given and done and done and DONE! So I guess I have inadvertently created this illusion that I don’t need anyone. Is that what I have done?? I am tired… I am tired of being the only one who gives to some who only take. They make little or no effort. Weeks will go by with no word.. until I am the one who reaches out. I am the one who travels to see them with no reciprocation. I have made the effort to be there for specific occasions any time I am needed with no one to return the same effort. Now, I do have the freedom to do this when others do not and I appreciate that so again, that is easier to forgive. But after almost 8 years, I am done expecting anyone to change this behavior.

crossing oceans

Life has its ups and downs, valleys and mountains, highs and lows… etc. There is no way to avoid some things that happen to you and around you. Even if you are just sitting at home watching TV minding your own business, a sink hole can open up below you and swallow your house. But when we go through the trials of life, it is then when we find out who truly cares about us. The ones who pick up the phone and CALL you to see how you are doing or at least send a text and check on you; they are the ones who you can say “Those are my people” because they know you would do the same and HAVE done the same for them. It is nice to know someone is praying for you and sending you good thoughts and energy. This is how you get through the lows, valleys and downs in life. That is why it is important to make friends but you can’t stop there! You have to cultivate that friendship. You have to pay attention and feed it just like any relationship! It is not one-sided! It takes effort on both sides…. Those same friends are the ones who are there to share all of the joys and celebrations too.

One of the things I have had to come to terms with is “out of sight, out of mind”. People do not mean to forget you, but they do because you are not there. They go on with their lives and make new friends and you make new friends and there is no malice involved. It is just the way of the world. I also appreciate that my mindfulness of friendships is a foreign concept to most. Everyone gets so busy with their lives that time passes and suddenly it is years later and you haven’t seen or heard from someone in months. No one is mad at anyone else, it just happens. The hard part is not getting your feelings hurt when someone moves away or you are the one who left and no one stays in touch. So the solution? Just make new friends where you are, put forth the effort to the ones who are close by now and understand that everyone goes on with their lives and cherish the time you have together because for everything there is a season. The ones from the past are missing out on someone who was their friend all along… 




Do You Know This Player?


My name is Pride, I am a cheater.

I cheat you of your God-given destiny…

because you demand your own way.

I cheat you of contentment…

because you “deserve better than this.”

I cheat you of knowledge…because you already know it all!

I cheat you of healing…

because you’re too full of me to forgive.

I cheat you of holiness…

because you refuse to admit when you are wrong.

I cheat you of vision…

because you would rather look in the mirror than out a window.

I cheat you of friendship…

because you would rather look in the mirror than out the window.

I cheat you of genuine friendship…

because no one is going to get to know the real you.

I cheat you of love… because real romance demands sacrifice.

I cheat you of greatness in heaven…

because you refuse to wash another’s feet on earth.

I cheat you of God’s glory…

because I convince you to seek your own.

My name is Pride! I am a cheater!

You like me because you always think I am looking out for you.

UNTRUE! I’m looking to make a fool of you!

God has so much for you… but don’t worry… because if you stick with me?

You will never know!


Tammi Kale

My Mantra today….

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sometimes you don’t really know who your friends are until you have to reach out and they are truly there! I have so many wonderful people in my life with friends and family! God has blessed me beyond my wildest dreams!!
Thank you for helping me and mine through the last few weeks……
I couldn’t have done it without you! 🙂

Resolutions, new beginnings, start over, try again……?

Today’s Observation :

It’s that time of year again kids! You know….Resolutions, new beginnings, start over, try again……? I don’t believe in resolutions personally. Mainly because they never seem to work out for me. Why not make positive changes to your life year round? Why wait until Jan 1?

I spent the better part of 2013 (and 2014) making good changes for myself. Most have worked out, some have not. I have added to and taken away from my list. I have learned not to make unrealistic goals but challenge myself to be better in some new way. I stay more focused and show more kindness but I have learned to use boundaries and I am way better at using the N O word. I read more and continue to challenge my brain and be as authentic as possible. The problem with my new changes is some of the people who were here in Jan 2013 (and 2014) are no longer a part of my life. That makes me sad in some ways but I have added more friends to my circle that fill in the gaps to some degree and have a much better perspective than the drama queens and kings who were there before.

I have learned things about myself that were hard to adjust to but overall gave me a greater understanding of why I do the things I do. I have learned to cut myself some slack. This was a huge challenge to say the least because I have always been so hard on myself, which in turn makes me hard on those around me. For this I greatly apologize…..

I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive for improvement and relax in what I have accomplished without beating myself up for not getting one more thing done. It does help to have support from the ones around me who love me and care for me in spite of my flaws.

I still struggle with trust. This is a bit ironic because there are so many in my circle of influence who trust me. But I still keep some of my feelings and inner thoughts to myself. I feel like a fraud sometimes. My wonderful therapists over the years have chastised me for this. But it is a reality of mine. I feel like I have everyone fooled into thinking I am this awesome person but if they really knew the “real” me, they wouldn’t like me very much…much less think I was awesome! You have probably seen the sign that says “If they knew what I was thinking, I would be in a mental ward!” Truly! Aren’t you glad people can’t actually read your mind?? We all have impure thoughts and think about things we shouldn’t and laugh at things that are inappropriate. Thank goodness for grace……

What we feed our minds is important. Putting the best of the positive thoughts and influences in our minds will only give us the good things to dwell on. Thereby giving us positive things to say and be. You know the saying…Garbage in, garbage out! We are inundated with negativity in our everyday lives that cannot be helped. The news is a good example. I do not consciously watch the news anymore. If there is something important I need to know about, the information always finds me. If we put enough good and positive and Godly energy in our lives, thoughts and minds, it will eventually be a way of life and create positive energy to make us better people, parents and friends. We can do this by reading, watching good things on TV or by listening to music but I find surrounding myself with positive and Godly people along with those others things has the greatest influence on me.

So, instead of starting the new year with resolutions that will only be broken, try putting something positive in your life throughout the year and strive to make that an ongoing resolution to make yourself a better person 🙂
Brene' Brown

Brene' Brown<a

Best Advert Of All Time

Hey Y’all….WATCH THIS!

A Mixed Bag

This has to be THE best advert (commercial) that I have seen. It has over 63 million views on YouTube. And that’s just the official one. You have GOT to watch it. This will make you smile.

How it’s made

View original post

I AM LEO! Hear me roar!



Today’s Observation:

“When all of the meek shall inherit the earth, where will all the Leos go?”

I wish I could remember where I read this. I would love to take credit for the line, but I can’t. It was in a book or magazine or something I have read over the years regarding Leos. I have known many Leos and well……..none of us can be accused of being meek!


It is my Astrology sign and to some degree I believe it is true and accurate because there are way too many similarities for me to not have SOME truth to it. Do I read my horoscope everyday and abide the rules of my life dependent on that? By no means….. But I do think the time of the year we are born might lend some faction to our personality. I have met many other Leos and we have a lot in common. Likewise with other signs, there are ones we are most compatible with for friends and partners. It is consistent for me to have friends with the same Astrological signs; ones who are most like-minded, with similar personality traits. There is a strange connection and chemistry. When you talk to couples or friends who get along really well, chances are very good they have compatible Astrological signs. And then if you have a conversation with people who seems to disagree a lot, they have a tendency to have incompatible signs. This is based on my personal observation. This is not always true of course, but it is the case more times than not.


Now… I do not believe you should base a relationship on whether or not you have compatible signs. It just seems to be the natural order of things to gravitate to the ones we are most attracted to. I think there is some truth to that old saying “Opposites Attract”. It is a metaphysical fact that you must have opposite polar ends for even a magnet to stick to one another. So the same must be true with human nature right? But there is something to be said about wanting someone in your life who compliments you, completes you and has the things in their life you want also. Even though they seem to be opposites, they have a great deal in common when it comes to cultural beliefs, morals, religion, hobbies and basic needs. Who wants to always be with someone they fight with? Although……. Nevermind, that is a subject for another day.


I, personally, gravitate to people who enrich my life. I like to learn and grow and experience new things and getting to know new people. I have a tendency to steer clear of those who suck life energy from me and who seem to be pessimistic a majority of the time. Most people do not want to be around someone who is negative ALL THE TIME! Ick……. If you are not helping that other person grow in some way, or you are not learning or adding something positive to your own life, find those who do. It will drain you! Find a way to feed yourself mentally, spiritually and physically. Yeah, yeah…for those who know me! Shut up! Do as I say, not as I do….OK?


I have had the privilege of knowing many people in several areas of the country. The North and South mostly since I have not actually lived in the West, but I have several friends who have migrated to Texas from the West Coast and I can discern, to some degree, what they encountered growing up in that region. I know couples who have successful marriages and ones who have struggled the entire time and usually end up in divorce for one reason or another. But for those who stay together (baring any unusual psychological issues) there are always a few reasons they make it and those reasons are consistent. The main one I hear is: “We just get along and we don’t fight very much and if we disagree on something, we talk about it” AHHH…that communication thing!!! OH that’s what it is??? Hmmmm….. who knew?


Well, experts have known for many generations and it has been written about, researched, talked about and has been the underlying problem in most relationships across the board. It isn’t just marriages, but ALL relationships, friendships, marriages, children/parenting, boss-employee, siblings…etc. If you want a good one, you must have trust and communication. You don’t always have to agree on things but learn to talk about what is on your mind and most of all learn to listen! This is a two-way street. Even if you may not like to hear what the other person says because it causes you pain. Consider the importance of that other person and whether or not you want them in your life. If they aren’t important enough to work on the relationship and communication…..then move on! Or learn to love them where they are and know you have been the best friend, co-worker, spouse, lover, mom, dad, sibling you are capable of being. Then find others to compliment your life. I have found, the more I give to someone, the less I focus on my needs and somehow my needs are met when I least expect it.


I think I need to qualify my statements with “We are talking about somewhat normal, average people” not ones who have serious psychological damage and need help because of abuse or trust issues.


That is a whole other matter and not one I am willing to delve into here. But having been that person, I can tell you from my experience you CAN learn to trust again and you CAN be healed and have great relationships with friends, your spouse, business partner, siblings and even children! Rock on…..


This is just my observation!


Question: What’s  your sign? *giggle*