“BE STILL!”

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“Lord child would you sit still!” Those the words ring in my head from several people, but one who made an impact on me was my first grade teacher Mrs. Bolin.

Back in the day, there was no such thing as ADD/ADHD. I can only imagine what my life in school would have been like had there been such a diagnosis back in the 60s or 70s or even the early 80s. I struggled through school and learned, on my own, to put some tools in place that really helped me over the years…..still do, like making lists. But I didn’t do as well as I could have if I had known what was “wrong” with me instead of being told all my life I couldn’t sit still! Or worse, that I was lazy and hyper.

But getting back to Mrs. Bolin, apparently I frustrated that poor woman to the end of her last nerve. I was always done with my work first and instead of sitting in my seat quietly or finding something to amuse myself until everyone else was done, I got up and walked around the room and talked to my friends. This was first grade after all, not college. I was not a bad kid. I did mind (mostly) and I would go sit back down when she told me to. I never talked back and I was not mean or disruptive, I was just “busy” ALL THE TIME! So, (almost) every day…not even exaggerating… she sent me to the principal’s office. Not because I was in trouble but because it was the only thing she could think to do with me. Sitting me out in the hall was not going to work either. I just got up and walked up and down the hall.

Mrs Powell (the principal who was as old as Methuselah and chain smoked) would shake her head and tell me to go sit in “my chair”. Yep! I had my own personal chair. And I would sit there. Sometimes she would give me a book to look at or we would talk. But mostly I just sat there and swung my legs until Mrs Bolin would come fetch me and take me back to class; apologizing the entire time for sending me to see the principal. She would tell me she loved me but just didn’t know what else to do with me. It was the only way she could get anything done in class. I also loved Mrs Bolin. My second grade teacher was not near as patient, but I was also more scared of her and did as I was told (mostly) 😉

I have had a problem being “still” my entire life. I can’t even sit on the couch for any length of time without changing positions 17 times. I can’t watch TV without doing something with my hands. I am crocheting, playing solitaire on my phone or fidgeting with my nails. I always take something to do while I have to wait somewhere. There is no telling how many games of Solitaire, Tetris or Bejewled I have played on my cell. But I can sit for hours and put a jigsaw puzzle together or play one on my computer… go figure. Something mindless I think. It keeps my brain from whirling about.

My friends who know me very well will tell you I am always busy. The busier I am, the more I get done. If I have too much time on my hands, I get bored and depressed and I get nothing accomplished. I know… I am an enigma. But they say if you want to get something done, give it to a busy person. That’s me!

But we should always take time to be “still”. It is when God can talk to us. I do make much more effort these days and I have quiet time and really try to listen. There is so much noise in my head though.

Is there noise in your head? Maybe you should take time to be “still” also….

Love my friend Michelle for prompting me to write about this one! ❤

20 thoughts on ““BE STILL!”

  1. I love that your teacher told you that she loved you. It warmed my heart when you first shared that with me, and it warms my heart reading it again. It’s difficult to fight the nature of our busy selves – so maybe we don’t fight it as much and just let those busy bee tendencies buzz 🙂
    Thank you for the shout-out sister – you inspire me more than you know. Xoxo

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    • I have found ways to mute mine as well. Yoga helps a lot and so do massages (which I haven’t had lately) but I do Yoga 2 times a week when I am able and I have been walking on the treadmill in between days…sometimes the same day. Meditating is awesome and gets all the cobwebs out as well as giving the soul a rest. When I am focused on something, I can sit and do that for hours. But to that end…nothing ELSE gets done. I am bad about sitting in front of the computer for long stretches of time. It’s not good 😦

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    • Thanks Dawn. And I agree it can be over rated when people think it is the be all to end all. But there are certainly times we need to be still and listen to our breath and appreciate the things we have to be grateful for. That is what I forget in the midst of my business sometimes 😉
      Thanks so much for stopping by! ❤

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