Today’s Observation :
It’s that time of year again kids! You know….Resolutions, new beginnings, start over, try again……? I don’t believe in resolutions personally. Mainly because they never seem to work out for me. Why not make positive changes to your life year round? Why wait until Jan 1?
I spent the better part of 2013 (and 2014) making good changes for myself. Most have worked out, some have not. I have added to and taken away from my list. I have learned not to make unrealistic goals but challenge myself to be better in some new way. I stay more focused and show more kindness but I have learned to use boundaries and I am way better at using the N O word. I read more and continue to challenge my brain and be as authentic as possible. The problem with my new changes is some of the people who were here in Jan 2013 (and 2014) are no longer a part of my life. That makes me sad in some ways but I have added more friends to my circle that fill in the gaps to some degree and have a much better perspective than the drama queens and kings who were there before.
I have learned things about myself that were hard to adjust to but overall gave me a greater understanding of why I do the things I do. I have learned to cut myself some slack. This was a huge challenge to say the least because I have always been so hard on myself, which in turn makes me hard on those around me. For this I greatly apologize…..
I am not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but I strive for improvement and relax in what I have accomplished without beating myself up for not getting one more thing done. It does help to have support from the ones around me who love me and care for me in spite of my flaws.
I still struggle with trust. This is a bit ironic because there are so many in my circle of influence who trust me. But I still keep some of my feelings and inner thoughts to myself. I feel like a fraud sometimes. My wonderful therapists over the years have chastised me for this. But it is a reality of mine. I feel like I have everyone fooled into thinking I am this awesome person but if they really knew the “real” me, they wouldn’t like me very much…much less think I was awesome! You have probably seen the sign that says “If they knew what I was thinking, I would be in a mental ward!” Truly! Aren’t you glad people can’t actually read your mind?? We all have impure thoughts and think about things we shouldn’t and laugh at things that are inappropriate. Thank goodness for grace……
What we feed our minds is important. Putting the best of the positive thoughts and influences in our minds will only give us the good things to dwell on. Thereby giving us positive things to say and be. You know the saying…Garbage in, garbage out! We are inundated with negativity in our everyday lives that cannot be helped. The news is a good example. I do not consciously watch the news anymore. If there is something important I need to know about, the information always finds me. If we put enough good and positive and Godly energy in our lives, thoughts and minds, it will eventually be a way of life and create positive energy to make us better people, parents and friends. We can do this by reading, watching good things on TV or by listening to music but I find surrounding myself with positive and Godly people along with those others things has the greatest influence on me.
So, instead of starting the new year with resolutions that will only be broken, try putting something positive in your life throughout the year and strive to make that an ongoing resolution to make yourself a better person 🙂